My June 2015

Hello Guys,

I would like to apologize for my absence here. I can say that the month of June is not for me. I think I am very unlucky for that month. Want to know why?

Ah.. here it goes..

First, at the second week of July my son Gabriel got Pneumonia. It was very hard for me to handle it because it is the first time that he’s been hospitalized. Good thing is some of his hospital bills got covered by my Philhealth card and the other must be paid in cash. Gab stayed at the hospital for 4 days.

Second, I borrowed some money to my husband brother in order to take out my son from the hospital. I really hate it when I need to have debt. I wish I can be a millionaire.

Third, my father’s 60^th birthday celebration was postponed due to the previous problem, and I know he is sad but he understand my situation. You know? I feel so guilty up to now because I still haven’t made it up to him. I hope I can have extra money next pay day so I can treat him.

And before the month of June ends, I got hospitalized. It was 2pm in the afternoon when I feel a real pain at my lower right abdomen. I thought it was just simple UTI (Urinary Tract Infection) that’s why I kept on drinking lots of water. Want to know how lots? Well, I have a 800 ml tumbler at my desk and I usually got 3 refills on it. Then, when the pain was so unbearable. I decided to tell it to our HR. I was so glad that she is very kind to me. She was so worried to me and she let me use her account in UBER so got a vehicle going to the hospital.

Did I tell you that it’s my first time to be hospitalized? Well, yes it is my first time, and I can say that I was so scared. I was by myself taking the pain and keeping myself from crying. (haist.. I don’t want to remember it anymore!) I just texted my family about my condition. I just  stayed there for about 6 hours and my total bill was 6,000 pesos. Oh god! I am just thankful that I’ve got covered by our HMO in the company.

Well, I know that the month of June was not good enough for me but still I am lucky because I know that God never leaves at my side. He was always there for me even when I am so scared and in pain. That’s the power of my God.

What about you how were your month of June goes? Feel free to share it at the comment box bellow.

Hola! 2015

Hi guys!

Sorry if I am not active for the last few months. I am just not in the mood to write and give update.
I will try to have more time in writing next time.

My goal for this year is to gain more money!

I am sure everyone wants it. Wish more blessing come to us!

I hope you guys are still in good condition.

Keep in touch..

My Past Time: Watching Movies

Super thankful ako sa napakabait kong kaofficemate  kong si Tere, haha dahil sa pag dl nya ng mga movies updated na din ako sa lates movies sa theater.

Here are the list that I've already watch,

Begin Again (2013)

Chef (2014)

Edge of Tomorrow

Neighbors

The Fault in Our Stars

500 days of Summer

Charlie St. Cloud

Pitch Perfect

Rumor Has it

Monster University

Duedate

Dracula untold

Sleepy Hollow

Jump Street 22

Divergent 


at sana makapag dl pa sya ng marami hahaha...

My Past Time : Reading Books

Minsan sa sobarang bored, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Then bigla ko naisipan mag-basa. Nung napanuod ko ung movie ng Divergent and nalaman ko na may Trilogy pala sya naisip ko na mas mabuti mabasa ko muna yung book nya bago pa ipalabas sa theater. Marami din kasing magagandang eksena na hindi nila kaya isama sa movie so mas maganda kung mabasa mo ng buo ung kwento nya. 

Nagsimula ako mangulekta ng mga soft copies ng magagandang book. Ayaw ko kasi bumili haha kuntento na ko sa soft copies then basahin sa cp ko. Sa ngayon eto pa lang ang listahan ng mga nabasa ko..

Forever Black by Sandy Lynn

The Boy who sneaks in my bedroom window by Kirsty Moseley

Beautiful Stranger by Christina Lauren

Bared to you

Fifty Shades of Grey

Fifty shades Darker

Pleasures of the Night

Beautiful Stranger

Yung iba nakalimutan ko na ung title medyo makakalimutin din kasi ako haha.

eto naman ang list ng mga gustu ko pa mabasa..

Insurgent by  Veronica Roth

Allegiant by  Veronica Roth

Fifty Shades Freed 

Gone Girl 

Beautiful Bastard

etc..

Gusto ko matapos lahat yan bago pa ipalabas hahaha..

Kung meron din kayo interesting books, feel free to suggest it and if you want to have a copies of those stories kindly inform me too. 

Laman nang aking Isip

Nitong mga nakaraang araw, nagging magulo ang isip ko. Gustu ko magfocus sa trabaho ko pero lagi nalang ako nawawala sa sarili. Lagi akong nagdedaydream. Wala naman masama mangarap, kaya lang.. napapadalas na yung pagdedaydream ko. Hanggang sa mamamalayan ko naubos na yung oras ko sa pag iisp.

Iniisip ko kasi kung anu ba maganda gawin para makabili kagad ako ng bahay. Nag rerent lang kasi kami at halos kalahati ng sahod ko dun na pupunta. Minsan parang hindi na nga sapat yung sahod ko sa gastusin naming. Naiisip ko kung magkakaron kami ng sariling bahay at least meron ako napupundar kahit papano.

Naiisip ko din mag abroad. Kaya lang mailiit pa ang anak ko para iwan ko. Matanda na din sila mama para iwanan ko. At higit sa lahat pano na sila pag umalis ako. Yung kapatid kong lalaki sakin nakatira pero madalas hindi sila magkasundo ni papa. Mahirap pag walang taga awat sa kanila baka kung ano pa mangyari kina papa at mama pag nagkataon.

Merong din offer sakin yung ante ko, invite daw ako sa Sweden, kaya lang irereto ka para maging asawa dun. Ang problema my asawa na ko eh, kahit hindi kami kasal mahal ko yun! Maaring guminhawa nga ang buhay ko kaya lang iniisip ko kung ano magging reaksyon ng anak ko. Hahanapin nya ang daddy nya pag laki nya.

Pero ang pinaka gustu ko sa lahat.. Ang Manalo sa LOTTO! Hahahah kahit hindi ako tumataya lagi pa din ako nangangarap Manalo. Naiisip ko nga pag nanalo ako mag iinivest kagad ako sa properties. Mahirap pag hindi mo ginamit nang maayos yung napanalunan mo. Mabilis mawala ang pera.

Sa lahat lahat ng mga iniisip ko, at the end of the day, Nag pepray ako. Nagpapasalamat na buhay pa ko, nagpapasalamat sa pagkain, sa pag-gabay, sa pagbantay, sa mga biyaya at higit sa lahat sa pag papatawad sa mga kasalanan natin. Maswerte pa din ako kasi wala may sakit sa amin at kahit papano ay nakakaraos naman kami.

Sana lang makahanap ako nang magandang offer para hindi ko na isipin mangibang bansa. Mahirap talaga kung mawawalay ka sa pamilya mo. Kahit hindi ko pa nararanasan, Isipin ko pa lang parang hindi ko na kaya.

O sya hanggang dito nalang.

Ikaw marami ka din ba pangarap? Pwede mo ishare samin… J

Another Half

It’s the first day of July, It is also the start of the other half of the year.  This month is very important to me, because I am going to decide whether I will stay in my present job or I am going to leave it. I always pray that I can find a good company like this so that I can also stay there for more years. I know god has a plan for me and I will lay to his hands and follow his will.

I know it is hard to look for a new company with a good system and has a benefits and HMO benefits, but still I need to try hard for it. My salary now is not enough to fulfill the needs of my family especially now that I have a baby.  I just really wish for the best. Hahaha and more positive vibes for me.

Attitude Problem'

Attitude Problem'

Halos lahat ata meron Attitude Problem'. Pero syempre depende pa din sa tao yon' kung pano nya ihandle yung mga ganung problema. May times na pwede pa matolerate pero kadalasan hindi na kaya ihandle.

May kaofficemate kasi ako. Nung una naman okay naman kami' as in close kamil, daldalan kami ng kung ano-ano. Masaya lang walang stress. Then ngkaron ng transition. nawala yung isa sa leader namin tapos sya na yung pumalit. Dun nagsimula yung lahat. Nagkaron ng mga hindi pagkakaintindihan. Nakapag bitaw ng masasakit na salita. Pero nung napag usapan na namin un. Nagkaron ng hingian ng sorry. Sabi nya non' my "GAP" na daw kami starting that day. Pero kabaligtaran nangyari, mas naging pala kwento sya. Mas naging madikit. Naiintindihan ko naman kasi mahirap magtrabaho ng my kagalit.

Pero biglang nagbago ulit. Nagalit sya sa mga jokes nung mga kaworkmate namin. Simula nun' umiwas na sya. Ramdam namin yung tensyon. Pinipilit ko sya kausapin kung ano yung problema nya. Pero hindi nya sinasabi. Hanggang sa nabasa ko nalang sa blog nya lahat ng galit nya. Galit na galit sya. Hindi sya makaget over dun sa dati naming issue na inayos namin nuon. Dala padin nya hanggang ngayon. Kahit anong pilit namin makipag ayos. Wala sarado na sya. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung sino samin ang my problema eh.

Lumala na sya ng husto hanggang sa mga post nya sa blog nya. Nilalait nya kami. Isa isa pa nya kami dinescribe sa mga readers nya. Ako daw ay Noisy Kettle! Well, Tama ka dyan teh' maingay naman talaga ako' inaantok kasi ako pag hindi maingay. Dun naman sa sinasabi mo na "sees herself as a smart one but the fact is she doesn’t know how to correct her grammar" Hindi ko hiniling sayo ayusin yung grammar ko' Masyado ka lang maarte sa pag pili ng word. kahit isang word lang na may mabago ka feeling mo buong grammar na mali ko' eh synonyms lang din naman pinalit mo. Haha
Pasyensya na ha! Perpekto ka kasi. hahaha Naisip kaya nya panu idescribe yung sarili nya?

Gustu mo describe din kita?
Wag nalang hindi ko na gagawin yung ginawa mo' Dyan ka masaya eh!

 Naisip kaya nya kung sya ba bully din? Eh mas malakas pa nga sya mambully eh. Sabi nga nya ngayon lang daw sya naka encounter ng ganung mga tao. Kami din naman ngayon lang nakatagpo ng tulad nya? Hindi maka sabay sa agos. Pikon at masyadong maramdamin.


Ako din naman pikon at maramdamin. Pero hindi ako yung tipo na kikimkimin ko ng matagal yung galit. Kasi alam ko sa sarili ko ako din ang mahihirapan. Maasar lang ako lalo at ako ang talo. Hindi din healthy. Maapektuhan ang trabaho ko at ang performance ko.

Well, paalala ko lang sayo hindi lahat ng tao perpekto. Kahit sarili mo. Kaya wag ka mag malinis. Kung anuman yung nasabi ko before, totoo naman lahat yun. Kaya ka nga nagagalit eh' kasi totoo diba? Hanggang ngayun nagrereflect. Pero sabi ko nga nakaraan na yun' wala na sakin yun. Kasi nagsorry na ko sayo nun. Tinapos ko na yun dun. Ewan ko ba bakit ikaw dala mo pa din hanggang ngayon.

Hindi lang ikaw ang nahihirapan pakisamahan ka' kung alam mo lang. Pero sakin kahit anu pa sabihin mo wala na ko pakelam'. Hindi naman ako sasaya kung ikaw ang iisipin ko! Kaya ko lang sinulat to kasi alam ko babasahin mo. haha


Wish ko lang maka get over kana'
pray for you' totoo yan!
Syanga pala'
Saludo din sayo middle finger ko eh' para patas tau!

Happy Mother's day Mama

For the the girl who always stay by my side through ups and down!
For the girl who did everything just to finish my study,
For the girl that always understand and have a lot of patience for me,
For the girl who teaches me what is right and wrong and guide me through my decision,
For the girl that is taking care my son right now

I love you!

I may not be very vocal to say how much I love you.
I may not be a good daughter to you.
I may not did what your dreams for me.
I may not be the one who always check up on you.

but, I am the one who is very thankful to have you as my mother'
Thank you for everything and everything.
How I wish I can do my best to give you the life that you've been wishing for.
I will do my best for you and I will never leave you ma'
Always remember that I will take care of you up to the last minute.
 I love you forever and ever..


muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh..

This is my favorite song for you'



Happy, to let you know
You make me glow
I feel so good, it's true
So glad that I have you
You love me so
Now all is bright

I'll always thank you for the glow
And thank you for the joy
Thank you for the love you give to me
I'm glowing, glowing inside
With your love shining through
Thank you for everything you do
I'm glowing inside because of you

Remember, my growing years
They're filled with joy
Because you're there for me
You cast my fears away
You wipe those tears
You gave me strength each day

I thank you for the glow
And thank you for the joy
Thank you for the love you give to me
I'm glowing, glowing inside
With your love shining through
Thank you for everything you do
I'm glowing inside because of you

Who knows of what tomorrow brings
My glowing wings can make me fly
I'll reach and now I touch the sky
Because of you I'll sore up high
So I must

Thank you for the glow
And thank you for the joy
Thank you for the love you give to me
I'm glowing, glowing inside
With your love shining through
Thank you for everything you do
I'm glowing inside because of you

Lesson 102

It is hard to please all the people that surrounds you,

It is not easy to deal with them if you really not feel to,

and sometimes it is better to "tell/speak out" what you really feel so they would understand you.

This day, I've learned that even you saw good seeds to somebody, they will still don't appreciate it.

All they can remember is the wrong thing that you do' and forget about the good times that you shared.

You can't even call them a friend if you know for your self that they been hiding bad criticism about you.

Also, I've learned that you need to deal with them even if you don't want to just for the sake of your job. It's so sad to know that after that day of laughing and smiles that you shared there is hatred that been hiding on her heart.

It sucks you saw faces that is really guilty, and keep avoiding you like you do such a crime. Keep doing that on work is really not good. It pushes negative energy.

I already prayed that god may lead them to the path they want to go. Sound's fun right? but I really am.

It is better to talk to him whether it is good things of bad things. 

If you live your life with hatred in your heart' you will never feel the happiness that your looking for.

I wish you all the best to your next journey. Even though we had a misunderstanding before' I still like you as my friend.

This song is for you'

I wanna see you be brave

Read this and smile

When I first saw this' I can't help but laugh and smile whenever I remember hahahahah

Welcome 2014!

Happy New Year Everyone!
Good health and more blessings to come with us!

Always think positive :)

Yolanda in Philippines

As all you witness, Super Typhoon Yolanda hits the Philippines that leaves many casualties. Many homes, buildings and lives was destroyed by Yolanda, though people are aware to the typhoon. We still have many casualties.

Today many people are still seeking for help in Tacloban Leyte and the other areas that been also affected. It is just sad to realize that our government doesn't have the capacity to give immediate responds to the victims.
We already see what happen to them it is enough to give mercy on them. All they need was our help. Please help in anyway that you can.  It is time for walk to help them.

I still want to give thanks for the countries that give their help in donation and in kind. We really appreciate your help.

Prayers and love are all with you 

Halloween Preparation 2013

I can feel the presence of the ghost around the office hahaha. Sorry if I can't show you some photos of it' :( Some of my colleagues are really excited about the Halloween party but sadly my team doesn't.

It just that the leader it self doesn't interested to cooperate. I am just disappointed to her. She always say that I am the representative in our team, but it is really fake. 

Haha.. 

Bitter? 

No' not at all. 

I just get to use her attitude.

Anyway, Wish all of you can have a happy experience to your Halloween Celebration' 

I will share some photos of my Halloween workstation design soon. 

Just check it out..

Short ghost Story : The Elevator

The Elevator
 Gem is working as a nurse in a big hospital. during that time, gem was on a night shift, where hours would seem like eternity. To keep herself from falling asleep, she and her nurse friends would talk about a lot of things-especially ghost stories-to perk them up while doing their charting.

Then one night, the nurses got too busy to chat-someone died in the emergency room,a group of people were admitted due to a vehicular accident, another patient is in a critical condition. The nurses were prepared for such emergencies and were able to attend all those needing medical attention. Gem had to go to the pharmacy downstairs to get some medicine for her patient. She hurried to the nearby elevator to the ground floor. She was on the fourth floor.

Gem saw that there was already a man inside the elevator when she got in. She didn't know the guy, but she was happy that she had someone to ride the elevator with. As the elevator reached the second floor,the doors opened. They saw a little boy, about five years old, waiting to get inside the elevator. But before the boy could get in, Gem hurriedly closed the elevator doors and pressed again the ground floor button, leaving the boy behind.

The stranger was puzzled and asked gem why she did what she did. "why didn't you let the poor boy ride with us?" the man asked. "He looks like the boy who died here the other day. We tried to save him, but we couldn't. The second floor houses the pediatric ward and that's where the boy died," explained gem who was a bit winded.

 "How can you be so sure that it was the same boy? Is it because he's wearing the same tag as mine?" the stranger asked as he raised his arm to show gem the hospital tag attached to his wrist. Gem was taken aback. She thought she was going to faint. She stared at the man this time, finally noticing that he was in a hospital gown. She suddenly recognized who the man was- he was the one who was in a critical condition an hour earlier, but died on the operating table.

The elevator doors opened as it reached the ground floor. Gem ran blindly away from the lift and never looked back. She got the medicines she needed and hurriedly went back to her patient. but this time, she didn't take the elevator. Instead, she took the stairs. Never again did she ride the elevator during night shifts.

Short Ghost Story : Jeepney RiDe

Jeepney RiDe

It's funny when certain events in our lives occur and we blame it all to bad luck. What's funnier is the things that we do to counter the flow of bad energy that causes these so called bad luck or bad events. At least at that time I thought it was funny, until my friend shared her unlikely experience. jeepney This story is about my friend and her scary jeepney ride going home.

 For those of you who don't know what jeepneys are, they are a popular means of public transportation in the Philippines. They were originally made from US military jeeps left over from World War II and are well known for their flamboyant decoration and crowded seating.

 My friend went home late after finishing their school project, now since she lives within the vicinity of the U.P. Diliman campus (University of the Philippines) it was perfectly safe for her to take the jeepney instead of taking a taxi in going home during late hours. It was about midnight when she took the ride home, and she could not help but notice the driver kept glancing at her through his rear view mirror and then he would turn to her. (Now all jeepneys have their own route and do not take any turns and they have to stick to their route or else there is a big chance that they would run into some cop trouble).

What's odd about this jeepney ride besides the eerie glances that the driver gave from time to time, he was also taking turns in corners that he was not suppose to. Afraid of what the drivers plans are, she was even more afraid of her surroundings because it seemed as if she was in the middle of nowhere already. So instead of going down, she just stayed on the jeep. On the last turn that the driver made, she noticed that they were back on the route that they were suppose to be in the first place.

Before reaching the end of the terminal, the driver turned to my friend and said, "Im sorry if I scared you or startled you! It was not my intention".. "Could you do me a favor and BURN all your clothes when you get home".. Wondering why my friend asked why he was acting very strange. The driver explained, "The reason why I kept glancing was because your head was not attached to your body when I looked through my rear view mirror."

"That is why I changed my route awhile ago, hoping we could get away from the bad energy present in that area, and thats why I want you to BURN your clothes when you get home because I think its still with you." Upon arriving home, still shaking from fear, my friend took all her clothes off and burned them as quickly as she could. A few days later she found out on the news that the jeepney driver died a day after the incident. It turned out the warning was not for her but for the driver. *****